Lord of All

" I believe that every particle of dust that dances in the sunbeam does not move an atom more or less than God wishes—that every particle of spray that dashes against the steamboat has its orbit as well as the sun in the heavens—that the chaff from the hand of the winnower is steered as the stars in their courses. The creeping of an aphis over the rosebud is as much fixed as the march of the devastating pestilence—the fall of sere leaves from a poplar is as fully ordained as the tumbling of an avalanche. He that believes in a God must believe this truth. There is no standing-point between this and atheism. There is no half way between a mighty God that worketh all things by the sovereign counsel of his will and no God at all. A God that cannot do as he pleases—a God whose will is frustrated, is not a God, and cannot be a God. I could not believe in such a God as that." - C. H. Spurgeon



This was shared by our former Pastor, Chris Hough, who lost his 15 year old son just the day before Easter. Such an incredible family and their testimony of faith through this time can only come from God.
Please remember the Hough family in your prayers. 

33w2d

I have been pretty bad about weekly pregnancy updates, and since I spent my first day of my 33rd week of pregnancy visiting L&D, I thought I would update today.

Start fresh.

Last week, at 32 weeks, we had our appointment. The baby's heartbeat was wonderful as usual. I was measuring 33 weeks. I have gained a lot of weight. Don't really want to talk about that. But I have gained 30lbs so far. Yuck! That means I will probably gain 40lbs with this pregnancy. That will be a record for me. I think I gained the most with Benjamin...35lbs? He was big. 8lbs10oz. And I keep saying this is another big boy. But still, I miss the 25lb weight gain pregnancies. We had our third trimester ultrasound. We got a really cute picture of his chubby face. I haven't loaded any pics on this computer so that will have to wait. The kids got to come and Benjamin was absolutely adorable. He was going on and on about how cute his baby brother is. The tech would say, "there is his ankle." Benjamin would say,"awww, look at his cute little ankle. His ankle is so cute. When he comes out, I am going to kiss his little ankle." The tech loved Benjamin. She said after the kids left that we had the most adorable, well-behaved kids. That was really sweet, as a momma on bed rest, doesn't really get to have well-behaved kids. Lol! The baby was measuring in the 40th percentile and weighing about 4lbs. Amniotic levels were good, baby was good, and cervix measured 2.6. No funneling.

As far as how I am feeling... well, that's a different story. Still contracting. Really ready to hit that 36 week mark. Ready to be full on nesting! I am still having quite a few contractions since being discharged from the hospital. What makes me uncomfortable is how uncomfortable and strong they have become. Now when I have a contraction, it's like, "whoa! I'm having a contraction!" And the crampy feeling is just like real labor.

Next week at my 34 week appointment, we will have him perform another Fetal Fibronectin test. If it's negative, we are going to Florida with my family. That would be the best way to end bed rest! I am praying it all works out. If it's positive, we are trying to make back up plans. Maybe a trip to Tulsa or Branson, so the kids aren't completely devastated. They are still going to be very, very sad. But it's better than us going no where.

Update over and out.

Labor and Delivery... again : (

I was back at L&D again last night. After spending the day in NWA looking for a vehicle and playing with cousins, I started contracting on the way home. By 5pm they were pretty bad. I felt like if I could just take some magnesium, drink a bunch of water and get to child birth class, I would be ok. I took the magnesium and showed up to class late. I drank 2-3 bottles of water while I was there, but nothing was changing. At the end of class, I decided it was time to take my procardia and head home. I hopped into a warm bath at home with epsom salt added and just tried to relax. I kept drinking water and the bath felt really good, just didn't stop the contractions. After 2 hours in the bath, I got out and worked to get into bed. I turned on a show hoping to cause some distraction and just relax. I got really sleepy and turned it off. But actually trying to stay asleep made me realize my contractions were coming every 5 minutes. That continued for 20 min and I decided it was time to let the doctor know that I was going to L&D. He agreed that I needed to be monitored. Scot woke Avery and let her know he was going to take me up there and drop me off. I got my bag and a coke and we headed up there. My urine test was negative for infection. The doctor on call decided to have the nurse check me and monitor if there was any change over 2 hours. My cervix was closed but easy to reach. That made me a little nervous, as it is usually very posterior. The contractions continued every 3 minutes for about another hour and then slowed back down to every 5 to 6 minutes. About the time she came to check me, they had gone back to every 3 min. She checked me and this time the cervix was very posterior and hard to check. I felt better about that. I took another dose of Procardia and they let me go home. Scot came and got me and we arrived home about 5am. Everyone was exhausted. Hannah came to help us today and I have slept on and off. I keep contracting and keep taking my meds. I never had a chance to call my OB. But I am trying to decide what the purpose would be. I am doing everything they are telling me to do. They want me back up at the hospital if my water breaks, obviously, or I just keep having problems keeping the contractions away. Whenever I sit up, I have a lot of pressure. And thankfully, my contractions are coming but not consistent. The pain of them has picked up this week. I may have to buy some wine. That is one thing I haven't tried yet, but it worked with Aubrey.