The Maxwell's

Last night and today we attended the Maxwell Conference that our homeschool group organized. The Maxwell's are an amazing Godly example. They have walked the narrow way and have grown children and a lifetime of experience. You can read about them here.

They were such a blessing to me and to our family. I didn't know this until this conference, but Terri Maxwell, also suffered with depression. In all this time, I didn't know that. I know she talks about it some, but didn't know it was because she suffered with it. It was freeing to hear her testimony. Comforting. It's good to be reminded you are not the only one who curls up in a fetal position crying. But she didn't stop there, she talked about things God showed her to do to get rid of her depression. And that was just the answer to prayer I needed. I do have some medical hormonal things in dealing with my depression that the doctor helps to take care of.

But depression doesn't always end with the slather of hormone cream on my inner arm. Depression runs much deeper into the soul. And the devil gains access to us through our thoughts. And that cream can't erase the damage he has done. But God's word can. Like the most amazing cream ever massaged into our soul, it soothes like a cooling balm, erasing bad thoughts, calming our worst fears, restoring our joy.

And I needed to be reminded today that I have all I will ever need right in front of me. Between two pieces of purple bound leather. In 66 books. In soft, delicate pages. His love poured out. His answers. His wisdom.

I only need to read it. To ask. To open my heart and let Him speak.

"Word of God speak. Would you pour down like rain? Washing my eyes to see your majesty. To be still and know that you're in this place. Please let me stay and rest in your holiness. Word of God speak." Casting Crowns