Week 18

I am having a terrible fibromyalgia flare up today. I don't feel good at all. EVERYTHING hurts. I hate feeling this way. My kids and husband hate me feeling this way and I wish so much there was a quick fix or a magic pill. But only time makes this better. I don't have much time to get better. Maybe that's how I got this way in the first place. It has been rough recovering from the eventful arrival of Crew and three nights of not sleeping on a hospital couch. I felt like the weekend would help me, but sadly I woke up this morning in a tremendous amount of pain. I wasn't anticipating this at all.

On top of the flare up, I am contracting and cramping a lot. I don't know if it's a UTI, but I need to figure it out soon. I don't want to end up in the hospital for sure.

Thursday, I have to drive to Plano, TX for Abby's evaluation. And I am a total failure this year when it comes to therapy. I have no idea what they are going to say. I don't want to explain what my year has been like. I really don't. I pray she just does awesome on her evaluation and I don't have to say anything. Can someone do awesome when they haven't been doing the work? I hope so!

Baby belly is getting bigger. I finally can feel the baby moving. That started last weekend when Crew was born. The nurse on the postpartum floor also let us use the ultrasound machine! That was fun and perked up my sister's spirits. Unfortunately, the quality wasn't that great and the screen really small so I couldn't determine the gender. It's just a small portable machine used to determine position. Head up or down? But it was fun to see the baby bigger and moving all around.

This Thursday is our big ultrasound at the OB's office. We will find out the gender and then do a big reveal with the family on Saturday. We are going to have them find out by cutting into either a pink or blue cake. It will be fun keeping it secret for a few days. Not for them. : )