Our Anniversary!

I often will take a long absence from this place. Mental block, emotional block? I don't know. I just know there are times I feel like documenting, flushing out feelings, remembering the little things, and then other times no interest at all. I'm still not feeling it. But I am forcing myself to write a little here and there in hopes the desire will return. There's a lot to write about.

Starting with... today's our 15th wedding anniversary. 15 years! Like, I feel so old and I feel like I've been married so long and yet when I am celebrating my 25th, I know I will be thinking 15 was nothing. The truth is, 15 years is something. Every year a marriage survives in this sinful world is nothing short of a miracle. God's wonderful blessing. Through every trial and difficult time in our marriage, and there have been many, He has been there with His healing touch to smooth out our rough edges, calm our fears, restore the peace. I learned several years ago in an awesome book, that God's design for marriage isn't to make us happy but to make us HOLY. I cannot tell you how that one statement changed my life, my marriage, the way I look at difficulty and controversy in my marriage. I see every thing in a different light. And it's changed me. When I am at my boiling point, ready to throw the towel in, or worse throw something at him, I am reminded by that one simple statement. I ask myself, "I am open to letting God make me Holy or am I only interested in being happy?" Wow, has that done wonders for me and my HAPPINESS in my marriage. Somehow when I focus on God using this marriage to make me Holy, He made me happy and content and ok with controversy and problems. I have to say the past 5 years of our marriage have been the best so far. When people talk about marriage getting sweeter and sweeter with time, they are right!

Happy Anniversary babe! I love you!